If you’ve been reading for a while, you know that I’ve always sort of been jonesing for the future. In one way, maybe the more impulsive side of me, wants to get married, buy a house, have kids, live the dream. Things keep getting in the way, and I’m not bitter for the lack of those things, and it’s not like anything could truly stop it if I wanted them badly enough. However, I do sometimes get pangs of envy for my friends from grade school who are married, have kids, etc.
So a while ago, I got to thinking about it. I mean, logically there are very good reasons that I’m not in that position right now. I’ve made deliberate choices to wait until I get to play house. Now I’m starting to see my friends break up with the father of their child(ren), get divorced, lose their house to foreclosure. In no way, shape, or form do I take any sort of pleasure in seeing that. But it makes me grateful that because I’ve taken longer to get to that point, I am less likely to go through all of that. I may seem rash, but I’m really not. I take my time to make sure I’m doing something right. I am not about instant gratification, I’m patient.
I’m working on the envy part, but as long as I recall my mantra (slow but right, slow but right, haha), I am doing better.
In other news, B and I are probably going to end up living in L.A. at least for the next 3 years. Maybe forever after that, I don’t know. He still hasn’t heard anything from the law school in Vegas, so it’s not written in stone yet. Regardless, L.A. is close to Vegas but also has better weather, culture, architecture, etc. It’s much more expensive, but if B’s career is better off, then it’s worth a few years of extra cost. And I get to move out into B’s parents for a few months, and hang out with everyone in Vegas for a while until we move out permanently. It’s exciting stuff!
One of the things I need to be doing is going to gym about 5 days a week. I have these love handles that have creeped up on me the past few months, and I am rather unimpressed by it. In fact, I am now at a weight where I am able to join “Weight Watchers” although I won’t do that unless exercise alone doesn’t do the trick. Mostly because I don’t really care about my weight as a number, I care much more about the distribution of my body fat and muscle. So, wish me luck, send good vibes, etc. There are a lot of things I’m ambivalent towards, but my body is not one of them.
In other news: Coachella was insane, hot, and great fun. It was weird that each artist only performs for 45-60 minutes, then gets cut off. It’s almost like a teaser of your favorite artists. I am pretty bummed every time I see the 2010 lineup, but now I realize it wouldn’t have been that amazing to see deadmau5 for 50 minutes anyways. There were lots of fliers there for Lightning in a Bottle, which is on Memorial Day weekend.
Yeah I know. Looks incredible. However, I bought tickets to see deadmau5 on Sunday of MDW, and don’t regret it, so I won’t be making it to LIB this year, but really would like to go in 2012.
So on the calendar:
deadmau5 on MDW
EDC in Vegas @ Speedway in late June (not camping during the day for any reason)
Burning Man in August (not sure how I’m surviving this one yet)
Okay, running on like 12 hours of sleep for the last 60 hours of life, so I need to hit the hay!
